I wish I could just take the Long Walk

[lonemagpie]

So far 2013's been like that.

Started in depression and illness to the extent of really not wanting to even do Redemption. Died a bit, regenerated...

Had wonderful time at Red 13, got regenerated, got healed, go my faith in the universe rebooted... Nice through March...

Then spent April and May, feels like the whole of so-called Spring, killing everything around me. Or at least with everything around me falling - and when you're raised so high, you've so much further to fall.

So there was pain and loss and guilt and pennilessness, and the last month repaying the glory of long-standing friendships with squalor and anxieties and burdens... I'm really no good to any of you, especially if I've ever brought you to a higher place to fall from.

Spending the last week with buggered ribs and shit weather, four hours sleep at night, sliding deadlines, and more death.

I'm a fucking jinx to everybody around me, and I should take the Long Walk if I knew where to go.