Slightly less broken now?
Apr. 2nd, 2013 08:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lonemagpieSlightly.
I think I'm coming to terms with what's happened with Eris. Don't know the details of exactly what happened.
I know it's hit me hard because when I saw the LJ note first on Friday, I immediately jumped on FB chat and asked if she was OK. She said it was an old future-dated post that had popped up, and we chatted for a couple of hours. I should have been working, but this was more important.
So we chatted about RPGs, conventions, stuff like that, and she mentioned having been the official photographer for Eastercon 2011. I thought Redemption having an official photographer would be a good idea - and said at the Red committee meeting that this would hopefully giver Eris a reason to keep going for at least the next two years.
That when she was... going.
When I left the conversation I said I was always around to support her.
Then I had to go to Eastercon, and I saw the note pop up again on Saturday afternoon, but could only post a comment saying I hoped this was just the same future-dated thing popping up.
I should have jumped on to another chat, shouldn't I?
If hadn't been away on Saturday night/sunday, or if the damn hotel wifi had worked... Would she still be alive?
I said I'd always be there to listen and chat and I wasn't and now she's dead, and this is really freaking me out - even though I know she had other friends and supporters, but... It's still freaking me out.
I think I'm coming to terms with what's happened with Eris. Don't know the details of exactly what happened.
I know it's hit me hard because when I saw the LJ note first on Friday, I immediately jumped on FB chat and asked if she was OK. She said it was an old future-dated post that had popped up, and we chatted for a couple of hours. I should have been working, but this was more important.
So we chatted about RPGs, conventions, stuff like that, and she mentioned having been the official photographer for Eastercon 2011. I thought Redemption having an official photographer would be a good idea - and said at the Red committee meeting that this would hopefully giver Eris a reason to keep going for at least the next two years.
That when she was... going.
When I left the conversation I said I was always around to support her.
Then I had to go to Eastercon, and I saw the note pop up again on Saturday afternoon, but could only post a comment saying I hoped this was just the same future-dated thing popping up.
I should have jumped on to another chat, shouldn't I?
If hadn't been away on Saturday night/sunday, or if the damn hotel wifi had worked... Would she still be alive?
I said I'd always be there to listen and chat and I wasn't and now she's dead, and this is really freaking me out - even though I know she had other friends and supporters, but... It's still freaking me out.