lonemagpie: like it says (fuck it)
2013-11-23 06:44 pm

While on the subject

Failbook sending me mails to remind me that both Zoe and Eris (two accounts for the same person, of course) "celebrate their birthdays this week" doesn't fucking help.

Thank you so much for reminding me she only stuck around for an extra 30 hours or so.
lonemagpie: like it says (fuck it)
2013-11-23 04:08 pm

I don't even know what I want

Well

All I *really* want is to not fucking hurt and upset and fail people, and I used to be good at that, but not now. And I don’t fucking know how that switched, or how to not get back to being not a hurtful thing.

And I therefore feel I must be a complete douchebag because I can’t get that right.

As for what will make me feel more immediately better... I've no idea. I can't think of a damn thing that would give me good feels.

This fucking year...